Currently Listening Sam's Town By The Killers see related

I hate that I'm so skeptical about God's love and grace for me. I remember the times when it ws hard and God was there for me. But somewhere down the road of addictions and dumb choices people forgot that or just decide that not believe that God does love them. And is there with open arms. waiting for you to come to Him with you're problems so He can give grace and forgivness, even for me. But as I live life and do more searching in me and my life I uncover more and more doubt. Maybe this is a good process but I don't like it. I miss the simpler days I guess.

p.s. im having a good day....im just confused a lil.................

A little about the last few days.

Hey guys! I havent wrote all that mach lately. So heres a bit of whats going on in my life, starting with this morning.

I got up crazy early this morning(6am)...  And to my dismay fell asleep and didnt awake until 11:45ish. I was going to be attending a Aquire The Fire conference today and meet them at 3pm with my church. Except there ended up being not enough tickets, which was devastating.. Such a sad day. :(

I didn't really do all that much today. Made some phone calls/text, washed clothes, cleaned my room, paid some bills....ugh I hate bills, and then just hung out until 5...and then im gunna go see Amanda.  I wanna join a soccer team....I love soccer. Maybe I'll join the soccer team here in the fall. I think it'd be awesome to be a coach. I'd love to be a coach for a highschool team.

Yesterday.. was such a hectic day. I'll tell some of you tomorrow about something hillarious that happened it'll rock youre socks!

So for those of you that dont know. I am and will be for the next three weeks ill be on a music fast that my church is holding for a mouth.. thats right no moives so music.. except for worship music. I know it sounds harsh but is what i think God wants us to be doing to become closer to him, and worship the Lord our God in a more indepth and meaningful intense worship.

I love Houston Tx...so many of my friends live there. But i wish i could be living some other place thats cold and snowing like for instance Red Oak Colorado or Vermot. And well just not so many people. You know what i mean its like theres to many.. Way to many people here crowding the streets. But i love people just not people like Patrick Knight. just kidding bro. Lol.

I think before i worked at Starbucks i pretty much keep the Starbucks next to where I worked in business. I went there every day....but I haven't really drank coffee in a long time. I was too addicted to the caffeine...so now I only drink coffee every now and then.

Anyway....I gotta go